How do you find yourself after an eating disorder?
I’m recovering from an eating disorder that’s been going on for nearly 2 years. I feel like there are three different people- who I was prior to the ED, who I was during… And who I am now. The problem is, I am not who I was before, or during the ED. I feel so lost, and like I don’t even know who I am. Does anyone have experience with this? Is this normal? Any advice would be really helpful.
from my experiences i suppose it is – i have been struggling for about 6/7 years at least and i feel like a complete stranger too, it is hard because you arent surrounded by the thoughts or behaviour when you are at grasps of it but not before – you know you are recovering but you still remember when you had it and can see it now which you couldnt before so it is hard, then again it isnt like you used to be before, you cant always get back to that and that is so hard but you have to recreate yourself in a sense, forget about old ways and dont look at old photos etc.
it is a very strong thing you are doing and i admire how you are open about it and recovering, bare with it, it may not go away completely but it can get better and you can be someone new not who you were.
lime x
it is really hard to come back to normal i would eat little but often then your body will take time to get use to it. it took my friend ages and i say well done for saying you have an eating disorder thats the hardest thing dont eat big meals just little one it will take time but you will get back to normal soon
I have not experienced an eating disorder thank god. Because it is so bad for your body.
Anyway..
It sounds normal to be since you just recovered. Just wait a little while until your back to your normal self. : ]
I’m recovering too and yes, I feel the same way. I think it’s completely normal to feel this way because we went through something that was life altering. You can’t expect yourself to be ok overnight. The eating disorder took awhile to develop and it will take awhile to adjust to a new way of living. As time goes on and the issues are dealt with I think that you’ll feel a lot stronger and more secure with where your life is going.
Now that I’ve finally made up my mind to recover and have put my energy into other things (school, work, relationships) I feel more fulfilled and my urge to engage to act on my ED is lessening.
Just take one day at a time and give yourself credit for what you’ve accomplished already. Good luck!!